Inspiration

I might have just gotten the inspiration i needed. Today my friend asked me if i was going to pick him up to go rock climb, and i cancelled the plans because i really felt pretty groggy and thought there was no way i was going to be at the top of my game. Then there was also the nagging thought of price, rock climbing costs 13 dollars for a day without a membership, something i do not have. This is an indoor climbing gym.

Well when i was talking to him now, with the idea of climbing now that i felt good ( it had slipped my mind that i totally canceled on plans). I talked the usual IM talk that i do with half sentences that dont really make sense but do in my current mind. I dont talk in paragraphs at a time but thoughts, so sometimes my thought train gets onto the IM. Well it turns out my friend couldnt rock climb now because of a migraine, and through my half thoughts thought i was giving him shit about that. Now i can see how he would get mad, seeing as to him i was giving him shit for cancelling plans while not more than 4 hours ago i did the same. But in this rage he went through he told me what he really thought.

Sure a lot of it was going out of a mind being ridden by a migraine, but he told me how it was bullshit that i was canceling on plans and how i had done it three times before. Honestly it got me to thinking that i need to change being lazy. i need to do my shit. But honestly how do i keep this mindset? as long as everything is alright im just going to forget about this tomorrow. Also im starting to realize that saying stuff and having no one read it does actually suck. I know i made this with that in mind but sometimes it feels good to know that your telling someone.