Things About me: Good Friends

In middle school i was really quite abnormal. I would spend lunches in the library reading, and would not socialize almost at all. The socializing i did was on a DC++(Filesharing program). The hub i spent my time on also acted as a channel that had people i could talk to in it. There was magic marker, the owner. I never really got to know her but i did know she was in a relationship with a second user.

Maniac_Depressive_Santa was that user. He acted as the dysfunctional father to the group. occasionally he helped me with some random task i was trying to do on my computer. Last i remember it was me trying to create 250 folders to organize Manga. He made a script that created them for me, and it also named the folders too.
Then there was Quadra, a teacher of some sort. He was the last of the hub that i have had contact with. This was due to my playing Guild Wars, and seeing someone with the name "Quadra"
trying to sell some sort of item. I Messaged him and we conversed a bit but we really didnt have that much in common. The hub was mainly for people to make comments and have short conversations, never to really get to know one another.

Then there was x. Not exactly the letter, but a character you would get with Alt+025 or something like that. He was like the cousin who i had some things in common with, but would rarely talk to. He was really pretty odd. Through him i got to know xchan, and more noticeably the random board. That never really changed my life, but it was a way to waste time. Really, he was the person who corrupted me.
There were more people but in that age when i would only watch anime and stay in my room they acted as my family. I wish i would have not been so isolated and tried to have a social life instead of fucking around on DC++. what i would give to go back in time with my current body and re-enact those years. I look like im 16 but am actually 20, so really that would work.

So i've asserted that i was a shut-in, now to the good friends. While i was in band, i met my first two friends in middle school. Mike and matt. These two people introduced me to swimming. swimming made me learn that it wasnt good to stray from the pact ( things such as not wearing a speedo, and instead jammers was looked upon as weird). This was the first time i experienced expectations of my peers, and coaches, and i tried vigorously to meet them. I did not want to lose my friends. When the coach told us to make a certain base in under a certain time, i did not want to let my friends down, since we would all have to swim.
All of this i think made me a better person. Even though today i realize that these two friends may not have liked me as much as i'd like to think they did, they resulted in e being an altogether happier person. In highschool i met other friends due to my swim team, and all of this was possible because of them. So what makes good friends? I still think of them as good friends because they helped me so much, but it was also not their intention. I later found out that they insisted i join because their coach told them they needed more people in my age group.
While that was a lot later i did feel betrayed. All that time i felt as if these griends had this life changing effect on me, and i learned that it wasnt even their intention.

What makes a good friend? in their defense, this was middle school and friendships really revolved around unimportant things such as popularity, clothes, and such bullshit things. Yeah, i'd like to think of them as that since they helped me so much.